Is It The End?

It's time to say goodbye, but I think goodbyes are sad and I'd much rather say hello. Hello to a new adventure.

- Ernie Harwell

It is very hard to say goodbye to the things that you are starting to love. Like me I am not a writer but I am trying to be one. When our professor told us that we will be having a blog and write our entry every Monday, I was in shock because I am not a writer, I don't know where to get my theme and how can I stay with it for a semester.

When I started doing it I arrived at many ideas regarding my blog theme Memories of The Past. I started to  reminisce all the things I have experience in the past. My first blog is "Clumsy Little Aera" wherein I reminisce all the the clumsiness I had in the past. My second entry is entitled "So Close Yet so Far" It is all about my relationship with my cousins in the past. Third entry is entitled " Memories With my Grandmother" is all about the the memories I had with my grandmother and the thing we are doings when I was still young. fourth is entitled "Its Now or Never" is about my struggles when I was still studying accountancy. Fifth is "The Feeling of Being Lost" is my experiences when I got lost. Sixth is entitled "Oh No I'm The Target!" is about my fears in lizards and cockroaches" Seventh is "The Fragrance of The past" there are smells from the past that is happening over and over again. Eighth is " The Witch in Me" my past experiences when I got fascinated with witchcraft and when I tried doing it. Ninth is " The Sporty Side Of Me" The sports I play  and I used to play when I was a kid. Tenth " Media Literacy Campaign is Love" my experiences last semester when we had a media literacy campaign.


This will be my last blog entry after this semester, I know I am not a good writer so I hope that you will still read my blogs. Thank you and God bless till my next memories to share :)

Media Literacy Campaign is Love

Last semester our professor handed us a job to conduct a media literacy campaign at Sta. Anastacia Elementary School. At first I was so anxious about it, because in the first place I really don't know what to do, I mean what we will going to do next after we finish on planning about it.

The step on conducting the media literacy was not an easy thing to do. The things or the materials we used from the very first day of our campaign to the last are all well planned.

We have 4 weeks to  conduct the campaign. On the first week we tackled Print, we put a puppet show so that the children will be entertained while learning the importance of "Print Media". On the second week we discussed the Radio and what is it on the radio and  it's uses, we ask the students to go outside the class room to play "pass the message". On the third  week we discussed the Television and its importance and the "MTRCB" guidlines on watching TV. On the last day we discussed the new media or the Internet, we asked the children if they have a "facebook" or "twitter" account  and most of them have "facebook" we discussed to the the positive effect of the internet and of course the limitation. On the recognition day of our campaign we let the students play a game where they can apply all the things that they learned from the four weeks about media and the winner of the game came from the class that we are assign to. The last day was the hardest part of doing the campaign, because, somehow we became attached to the kids, we became friends instantly, some add us on facebook.

The campaign was an experience to be treasured forever. For this, even though we are so tired of doing the school stuff when we do the campaign every week we doesn't feel the stress that we are experiencing in school. Every problem we face was easily converted into something every time we do the campaign.

The Sporty Side of Me

Sports is a training ground for the "real world" sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. Just like me, at this age I already experienced so many ups and downs in life including academics, sports, and friendships. 

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Growing up I was really a grade conscious weirdo, in short a perfectionist. But, everything changes when I first introduced to soccer when I was in grade one. I just fell in love with the sport immediately to the extent that I don't want to leave the field anymore. I got addicted to it that I will play soccer with the older guys and become one of the guys instantly. I got to play soccer in our district meet and the coach saw a potential in me and invited me to play for the division meet. At first my mother was against it, but later on she was convinced. I was so happy that I got to play as a goal keeper but my dreams fade a way when the doctor saw a cyst on my neck disallowing me to compete for the upcoming games. I was so disappointed with the doctors findings, also my coaches. We asked for a second opinion with my physician telling us that the cyst is not cancerous and allowed to play soccer again but I will not be playing the position of a goal keeper instead the position of the mid fielder. That was the most memorable moment of my life even though we didn't get the gold medal, we still get one, it was a silver one.

On the next year I was already preparing for the upcoming division meet games when I got seek, I was really ill that time. I've gotten Bronchopneumonia according to the healthonline .com it is the infection causes inflammation in the alveoli (air sacs) in the lungs, causing the alveoli to become filled with fluid. It was the hardest  moment in my life that I have to dealt with. I'm always sick, I was coughing nonstop, I got so many absences in our class, I also gotten peptic ulcer. I was removed from the honors list in our class, I have given up my love for the sport because I am sick. And it was also the year that I celebrated new year while I was using the nebulizer, and I was not allowed to go outside the house. It was the most most painful thing that happened to me. 

Years have passed and I already moved on and forget about soccer and fell in love with another sport. This time it was badminton and a very different story because I am not sick anymore. I am free to do what ever I wanted to do with my life. But, sad to say I've wasted so many opportunities in badminton. During our district meet I was scheduled to play badminton but my classmates told our teachers that I am a former soccer player so I've got to play soccer. I was in third year high school when I said yes to our teacher that I will play basketball in our sports fest then again there are available slops for badminton players I decided to attend the try out and surprisingly I got in. Again My classmates told our teacher that I am already in with the basketball team. 

In life we are always in the midst of facing so many difficulties, just like how athletes deal with their own monster and accept defeat. We ordinary people are like players of our own life wherein every people come and go to destroy us, all we have to do is to accept as if they never did something wrong with us. And just continue our journey with winning and losing. 

The Witch in Me

The Craft was a 1996 movie starring Neve Campbell, Robin Tunney, Fairuza Balk and Rachel True. This movie was the first witchcraft movie I have ever watched. The story was all about Bonnie (Neve Campbell) and how she met the three other girls who studied witchcraft for them to have power that is different from the others, and no one didn't know that Bonnie is a natural witch because her mother was a witch, so to make the story short Bonnie is a half witch with a natural ability to call all natural forces like fire, wind, rain, and animals for protection. But the girls were so jealous with her powers, and they tried to kill her, unfortunately they are not successful in doing so.

The Craft movie made me fell in love with the art of witchcraft to the extent that I got addicted to it. I've got to watch videos on youtube, read articles from google, search for the things or materials that witch need to perform her rituals, and most especially know the colors of candles and its meaning.

By searching so many things about witchcraft, I became so fascinated with it, I always buy things or books that has a little touch of being witch on it, I always search for different spells on the web and memorize it after. Last summer vacation I've gone so mad and tried to perform rituals, I got to draw pentagram on our floor, get a brown candle and cast a spell, it turned me to disappointment because it was not successful. Then, I've got to cast another spell wherein I put all my concentration into it I stopped for a moment while casting because I felt that there is something happening behind my back I am hearing some whispering and it made me a little bit nervous, and I feel some sort of happiness because I can already feel success, but, I never finished the rituals because I remembered the consequence of doing it.

The first ever spell that I have tried, unfortunately it didn't worked out :(

Yesterday's Fragrance

Have you ever wonder what does the past smells like? If you do. Would you believe that there are different emotions in each smell of perfume or cologne that we used in the past or even in our daily lives in the present?

“A good fragrance is really a powerful cocktail of memories and emotion.”  ― Jeffrey Stepakoff

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Way back in high school my friends and I are addicted to cologne. Every week we always buy cologne for us to have a variety choices on what smell or scent we will be using everyday. Fiona was first cologne we tried, it does smell good especially the strawberry flavor one, it shows sweetness, every time I remember that we used to buy this cologne I can't stop my self from reminiscing the kind of life I had as a freshman high school student. It's kind'a funny co'z I remember how my friendship with my high school friends started. We are just talking about things and we gone talking about cologne.It just happened that we are all fascinated with cologne and perfume. Fiona cologne also represent our being adventurous that one time we arrived late in class because we bought something. 

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This Bench baby cologne reminds me of my happy moments as a kid who does not worried about everything, not worried of getting a low mark in school. A cologne that reminds me that I once became a happy go lucky child. The smell of this cologne really reminds me of my childhood past. Maybe because babies smells like this (LOL), It felt like I'm becoming a kid once again, a kid who always play with her male cousins acting like one of the guy, asking her father to buy her a "pellet gun", A kid who does not care if she violated the rules of her mother. Every time I smelling something like this cologne from my classmates I'm always telling them that, It really smells like the past.

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The smell of this water melon cologne reminds me of a sad memories together with the smell of  Aficionado F35 cologne. I felt sad maybe because I used this cologne when I was in fourth year high school where in, it was the stage that we will be leaving high school, we will be leaving our friends, of course, we have to go on our separate ways to prepare ourselves for a better future. After graduating from high school I never bought this kind of cologne anymore to somewhat forget the things we had in high school.

“I miss your fragrance, sometimes I miss it this much that I can clearly smell you in the air.” 
― Qaisar Iqbal Janjua 

Smells of perfume or cologne shown us that in a simple scent we were able to reminisce what we had in the past.

Oh No! I'm the Target!!

Cockroaches and socialites are the only things that can stay up all night and eat anything.

-Herb Caen

                                                                                     
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Cockroaches are kinds of insects that people shouldn't be afraid of, just like how cockroaches are portrayed in the 1996 movie Joe's Apartment wherein it was shown in such a funny way that it is singing and dancing. I kind'a like this movie because my phobia in cockroach is lessen a bit every time I watch this movie. I don't know when I started to have Katsaridaphobia known as fear of cockroach. One time I was sleeping and when suddenly I felt that there is an object running through my legs, so, I open my eyes and to my horror it was a cockroach. I immediately stand up and find my slippers, but I couldn't find it. I just let the cockroach go and I wasn't able to go back to sleep co'z I am afraid that it might enter my ears or mouth. Every vacation I'm always taking a bath late night, I am always seeing cockroaches on the wall, cockroaches on the ground and sometimes it is flying. Every time that there is cockroach in the bath room I most likely skip taking a bath because I can't kill it and I have this feeling that it was running after me and it will gonna eat. I know that cockroaches can't do such thing as killing a person. But, they've been running after me for a long time that I couldn't sleep nor I couldn't take a bath every time the are cockroaches around I felt like I am their Target!!

The lizard brain will fight (to the death) if it has to, but would rather run away. It likes a vendetta and has no trouble getting angry. -Seth Godin                                                       
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Lizards! Lizards! Lizards are just everywhere at night , we can always see them on our ceiling running through after one another. People have this certain hatred when it comes to lizards because it sometimes drop its feces on our head or face and it doesn't smell good. I was four years old when our "kasambay" was feeding me when the lizard drop on my legs and I accidentally thrown the plate on her face. I was so afraid and wasn't able to eat again because of it. It started my phobia on lizards. I was on second year high school and I was cleaning my bed room,  I was trying to fix the arrangement of my things when I moved my bed there was a dead lizard on it and it horrified me and wasn't able sleep on my room for two weeks because I am afraid that it might haunt me on my sleep. My third encounter with lizard was when I was talking to my mother when it drop on my head and I started jumping and shouting. I know that it is kinda funny that I am afraid of such things as lizard and cockroach but for me it was a serious matter I will always try to overcome and live it and I will try my best to make friends of them because it is healthy to have pets around you it can lessen all the stress that I get from studying.  I was their target once and I will always be their target by befriending them. 

The Feeling of Being Lost

“Getting lost is just another way of saying 'going exploring.” 
― Justina Chen, North of Beautiful

Kids are always worried of being left alone by their parents in a place that is not familiar to them. In my case I used to be worried too, whenever they are not around. I was four years old when my tutor and uncle wasn't there to fetch me in school, I was in panic already. I have been asking the school guard if my uncle have arrived or have he seen my tutor. It was the longest wait I've ever experienced in my entire life. I waited for two hours, And I realized that I am just waiting for nothing. They never came, then, luckily I remember that I memorized our land line number and I asked the guard to help me use the pay phone. I called my mom and told her that I'm still in school and nobody ever wonder where am I. I was nearly in tears while talking to my mom because I thought that they already forgotten about me. Thirty minutes later my uncle came and fetch me. As soon as we reach our home he apologizes to me and told me that next time he will never ever forget to fetch me. Fortunately, that incident never happened again.

 Another is when I went outside the class room to look for my tutor and she's not there, I asked other parents if they have seen my tutor, this is the worst thing I ever experience I really cried. I thought that she left me because I am not listening to her every time we had our review lessons. Then she saw me crying and asked me why I am doing outside. I told her that I was looking for her but I haven't seen her. Then she told me that she's just buying cup noodles and her reason pissed me off. I was already in the middle of thinking the best way to go home and then she came back. 

Third was when I was training for ballet class my "Ate Amy" was the one who accompanied me during that they and she left me for food. I was so worried because the ballet school is far from our home and I don't know how to go home if ever she will not return. I was so furious when I got home and told mom that I will never ever go to ballet school if she will not be around during the practices. 

And Lastly, the most horrible experienced I had was when I lost myself during the feast of San Juan. I run after the vendor of the water gun and I found myself in a sari-sari store and they gave food  so I would end up crying then my mother came, with her worried face. I was like laughing and she get mad and told me to never do it again, she even told me that water gun is not for girls.

After loosing myself many times I realized that I can get rid of my fear of being alone by following the will of my mother and not to break her rules. And every time I feel like I'm gonna lose myself in a middle of something, I should  be afraid of asking other people for guidance.