The Feeling of Being Lost

“Getting lost is just another way of saying 'going exploring.” 
― Justina Chen, North of Beautiful

Kids are always worried of being left alone by their parents in a place that is not familiar to them. In my case I used to be worried too, whenever they are not around. I was four years old when my tutor and uncle wasn't there to fetch me in school, I was in panic already. I have been asking the school guard if my uncle have arrived or have he seen my tutor. It was the longest wait I've ever experienced in my entire life. I waited for two hours, And I realized that I am just waiting for nothing. They never came, then, luckily I remember that I memorized our land line number and I asked the guard to help me use the pay phone. I called my mom and told her that I'm still in school and nobody ever wonder where am I. I was nearly in tears while talking to my mom because I thought that they already forgotten about me. Thirty minutes later my uncle came and fetch me. As soon as we reach our home he apologizes to me and told me that next time he will never ever forget to fetch me. Fortunately, that incident never happened again.

 Another is when I went outside the class room to look for my tutor and she's not there, I asked other parents if they have seen my tutor, this is the worst thing I ever experience I really cried. I thought that she left me because I am not listening to her every time we had our review lessons. Then she saw me crying and asked me why I am doing outside. I told her that I was looking for her but I haven't seen her. Then she told me that she's just buying cup noodles and her reason pissed me off. I was already in the middle of thinking the best way to go home and then she came back. 

Third was when I was training for ballet class my "Ate Amy" was the one who accompanied me during that they and she left me for food. I was so worried because the ballet school is far from our home and I don't know how to go home if ever she will not return. I was so furious when I got home and told mom that I will never ever go to ballet school if she will not be around during the practices. 

And Lastly, the most horrible experienced I had was when I lost myself during the feast of San Juan. I run after the vendor of the water gun and I found myself in a sari-sari store and they gave food  so I would end up crying then my mother came, with her worried face. I was like laughing and she get mad and told me to never do it again, she even told me that water gun is not for girls.

After loosing myself many times I realized that I can get rid of my fear of being alone by following the will of my mother and not to break her rules. And every time I feel like I'm gonna lose myself in a middle of something, I should  be afraid of asking other people for guidance.