Yesterday's Fragrance

Have you ever wonder what does the past smells like? If you do. Would you believe that there are different emotions in each smell of perfume or cologne that we used in the past or even in our daily lives in the present?

“A good fragrance is really a powerful cocktail of memories and emotion.”  ― Jeffrey Stepakoff

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Way back in high school my friends and I are addicted to cologne. Every week we always buy cologne for us to have a variety choices on what smell or scent we will be using everyday. Fiona was first cologne we tried, it does smell good especially the strawberry flavor one, it shows sweetness, every time I remember that we used to buy this cologne I can't stop my self from reminiscing the kind of life I had as a freshman high school student. It's kind'a funny co'z I remember how my friendship with my high school friends started. We are just talking about things and we gone talking about cologne.It just happened that we are all fascinated with cologne and perfume. Fiona cologne also represent our being adventurous that one time we arrived late in class because we bought something. 

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This Bench baby cologne reminds me of my happy moments as a kid who does not worried about everything, not worried of getting a low mark in school. A cologne that reminds me that I once became a happy go lucky child. The smell of this cologne really reminds me of my childhood past. Maybe because babies smells like this (LOL), It felt like I'm becoming a kid once again, a kid who always play with her male cousins acting like one of the guy, asking her father to buy her a "pellet gun", A kid who does not care if she violated the rules of her mother. Every time I smelling something like this cologne from my classmates I'm always telling them that, It really smells like the past.

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The smell of this water melon cologne reminds me of a sad memories together with the smell of  Aficionado F35 cologne. I felt sad maybe because I used this cologne when I was in fourth year high school where in, it was the stage that we will be leaving high school, we will be leaving our friends, of course, we have to go on our separate ways to prepare ourselves for a better future. After graduating from high school I never bought this kind of cologne anymore to somewhat forget the things we had in high school.

“I miss your fragrance, sometimes I miss it this much that I can clearly smell you in the air.” 
― Qaisar Iqbal Janjua 

Smells of perfume or cologne shown us that in a simple scent we were able to reminisce what we had in the past.

Oh No! I'm the Target!!

Cockroaches and socialites are the only things that can stay up all night and eat anything.

-Herb Caen

                                                                                     
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Cockroaches are kinds of insects that people shouldn't be afraid of, just like how cockroaches are portrayed in the 1996 movie Joe's Apartment wherein it was shown in such a funny way that it is singing and dancing. I kind'a like this movie because my phobia in cockroach is lessen a bit every time I watch this movie. I don't know when I started to have Katsaridaphobia known as fear of cockroach. One time I was sleeping and when suddenly I felt that there is an object running through my legs, so, I open my eyes and to my horror it was a cockroach. I immediately stand up and find my slippers, but I couldn't find it. I just let the cockroach go and I wasn't able to go back to sleep co'z I am afraid that it might enter my ears or mouth. Every vacation I'm always taking a bath late night, I am always seeing cockroaches on the wall, cockroaches on the ground and sometimes it is flying. Every time that there is cockroach in the bath room I most likely skip taking a bath because I can't kill it and I have this feeling that it was running after me and it will gonna eat. I know that cockroaches can't do such thing as killing a person. But, they've been running after me for a long time that I couldn't sleep nor I couldn't take a bath every time the are cockroaches around I felt like I am their Target!!

The lizard brain will fight (to the death) if it has to, but would rather run away. It likes a vendetta and has no trouble getting angry. -Seth Godin                                                       
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Lizards! Lizards! Lizards are just everywhere at night , we can always see them on our ceiling running through after one another. People have this certain hatred when it comes to lizards because it sometimes drop its feces on our head or face and it doesn't smell good. I was four years old when our "kasambay" was feeding me when the lizard drop on my legs and I accidentally thrown the plate on her face. I was so afraid and wasn't able to eat again because of it. It started my phobia on lizards. I was on second year high school and I was cleaning my bed room,  I was trying to fix the arrangement of my things when I moved my bed there was a dead lizard on it and it horrified me and wasn't able sleep on my room for two weeks because I am afraid that it might haunt me on my sleep. My third encounter with lizard was when I was talking to my mother when it drop on my head and I started jumping and shouting. I know that it is kinda funny that I am afraid of such things as lizard and cockroach but for me it was a serious matter I will always try to overcome and live it and I will try my best to make friends of them because it is healthy to have pets around you it can lessen all the stress that I get from studying.  I was their target once and I will always be their target by befriending them. 

The Feeling of Being Lost

“Getting lost is just another way of saying 'going exploring.” 
― Justina Chen, North of Beautiful

Kids are always worried of being left alone by their parents in a place that is not familiar to them. In my case I used to be worried too, whenever they are not around. I was four years old when my tutor and uncle wasn't there to fetch me in school, I was in panic already. I have been asking the school guard if my uncle have arrived or have he seen my tutor. It was the longest wait I've ever experienced in my entire life. I waited for two hours, And I realized that I am just waiting for nothing. They never came, then, luckily I remember that I memorized our land line number and I asked the guard to help me use the pay phone. I called my mom and told her that I'm still in school and nobody ever wonder where am I. I was nearly in tears while talking to my mom because I thought that they already forgotten about me. Thirty minutes later my uncle came and fetch me. As soon as we reach our home he apologizes to me and told me that next time he will never ever forget to fetch me. Fortunately, that incident never happened again.

 Another is when I went outside the class room to look for my tutor and she's not there, I asked other parents if they have seen my tutor, this is the worst thing I ever experience I really cried. I thought that she left me because I am not listening to her every time we had our review lessons. Then she saw me crying and asked me why I am doing outside. I told her that I was looking for her but I haven't seen her. Then she told me that she's just buying cup noodles and her reason pissed me off. I was already in the middle of thinking the best way to go home and then she came back. 

Third was when I was training for ballet class my "Ate Amy" was the one who accompanied me during that they and she left me for food. I was so worried because the ballet school is far from our home and I don't know how to go home if ever she will not return. I was so furious when I got home and told mom that I will never ever go to ballet school if she will not be around during the practices. 

And Lastly, the most horrible experienced I had was when I lost myself during the feast of San Juan. I run after the vendor of the water gun and I found myself in a sari-sari store and they gave food  so I would end up crying then my mother came, with her worried face. I was like laughing and she get mad and told me to never do it again, she even told me that water gun is not for girls.

After loosing myself many times I realized that I can get rid of my fear of being alone by following the will of my mother and not to break her rules. And every time I feel like I'm gonna lose myself in a middle of something, I should  be afraid of asking other people for guidance.  

Its Now or Never

 “know what you want, work to get it, then value it once you have it.” 

― Nora Roberts, Morrigan's Cross 

Ever since I was in grade school I have already set up my goals, that, in College I will take up Political Science, go to law school, work for Public Attorney's Office then put up my own law firm. I guess, not all set goals are always being achieved. Right after my high school graduation, I have realized that I haven't taken any entrance examination yet. I am already in a hurry that time, so, I took an entrance examination at Laguna College and passed it. The next day my mother enrolled me and I took up Accountancy, although it is against my will, I have to accept it because it was the only option I had.

My first semester of taking up Accountancy was fine, I've learned so many things like the basics of accounting, defining the difference among income, expense, assets and liabilities. I enjoyed everything from listing the journal entries in the balance sheets and making long computations to make sure that the value will balance in the end. They have this things with Accountancy students that when you balanced the value you will feel crazy and proud about yourself. It was much more fulfilling when you got everything right during major examinations. We also had subjects like Finance and Marketing that I also enjoyed the most. In Finance my favorite topic was about what is the difference between money and check, if check can be a legal tender like money? And in Marketing was when we were assigned to make our own product and advertised it in front of the class. The product we made that time was cologne it was called "Scent of Love" we mixed other colognes to come up with a new product, we also have to made the packaging, and I think it was the hardest part aside from advertising it, because it is hard to find the right materials to make the packaging presentable and appealing to the eyes of the possible buyers. When we advertised it in front I asked our model to make sure that she will spray the cologne and she did! And the out come was unexpected because some of our classmates says that it smells good. At the end of the first semester we answered the "Kashato Shirts" it is the hardest challenge of all because we have to applied everything we learned and what made it complex was the presence of the business transactions, the official receipt, cash invoice and check. 

Second semester came, It was a semester that I will never ever forget. It was the semester that I gave everything up because of the topic we had in Accounting. Our topic that time was about "Liquidation" I know to myself that I am following the formula to balance the value but still it is not balanced. There comes to a point that I am already crying in front of my mother telling her that it is really hard to force yourself to love the things that doesn't caught your attention in the first place. Still, she doesn't listen to me. The the announcement of the prelim grade, I was so disappointed with my grade and feel ashamed with it because I am afraid that people will judge me because of it. Then little by little I started the right remedy for everything, The announcement for midterm grade came I am happy because my grade increased a little, though, it is still not enough. My professor in Accounting told us in order to increase our grades we need to participate in recitation at I didn't participate, because I am not sure with my answers, but when my classmates answered and my answer was correct it made me realize that I also have to try participating in our discussions. I was awakened and realized that I have to push myself to the limit, and I did and happy of its out come because my grade increased and it made me think twice of the decision that I will make.But in the end I still made a decision that will make me happy. With my one year of stay as an accountancy student I also gained friends who helped me in coping up with things until the end of the semester. I am happy to have them because even though I already transferred to another school they are still there for me, always ready to listen to my nonsense stories hahaha they are still there to call me "Auto delete" and most especially they are there to comfort me whenever I feel so down. I am very thankful for having them, though, when we had a fight they run after me we had a little marathon and I guess it became a tradition already that every time there will be a misunderstanding we will have a marathon run. 

One thing that I have learned from this experience is that don't set your goals and just expect the unexpected because in the long run things happen unexpectedly. What we always have to do is to always accept the challenge of life and always be positive and don't let frustration overshadow us.

“When defeat comes, accept it as a signal that your plans are not sound, rebuild those plans, and set sail once more toward your coveted goal.” 
― Napoleon Hill